Mortgage payments are important, some might say they are top of the list kind of commitments……..I would have to agree with that. There’s nothing like having a roof…then not having a roof. A roof is stability in more ways than one and in a way, that stability rules our lives. We work hard to keep life stable. We stop working hard, our lives just might topple over. I can’t tell you how many times I have considered making a bold move in the interest of a better, happier direction in life, but shy away from it because the short term stability may be put in Jeopardy. Just to clarify, better and happier is not money in this conversation. It includes money, but is not about the money.
I have been in some way shape or form connected to the computer / internet / networking / web development industry for a dozen years now. I am not a master of anything, but am pretty good with a bunch of different things. I have been considering my future and what I want to do with the experience and interest I have. I decide a long time ago that working for myself is my ultimate goal. I have been thinking about my plan of attack for at least five years now and wonder if the leap is near… I am so close to jumping ship and swimming for it, but the water looks mighty cold and the coast looks so far away.
I have had some preliminary success in working my way up to working for myself, but the next step is a big one and the two options I am faced with are not ideal. To keep the stability, I must make what I make now, more or less. If I jump and swim on nights and weekends only, my family may not see me for a while. If I pitch a hybrid role to my boss, I may find myself with a stay or go situation, which would smash my plans of working for myself RIGHT NOW. The problem is that I have enough of a word out that I can make one move and just might get swamped with work and I am scared of that. If I go with the night and weekend business plan, I need to be able to set aside some time for family and I am scared that the new business would suffer if I do that.
So what am I to do? Not interested in small business loans or anything like that, don’t want to leave my company high and dry, don’t want to go on family hiatus, but don’t want to put off my goals for much longer…….
Apparently I am in a pickle, and I’m not particularly fond of pickles…